Monday, September 13, 2010

The End...

I was 14.5 weeks pregnant, yesterday that is, today no heartbeat beating in my tiny little baby's chest. Not AGAIN. Yes, AGAIN.

The tears will come, the pain will come, has it yet to go away?

D&C scheduled for tomorrow.
We did no tell anyone I was pregnant, not even our kids knew because we wanted to spare them this pain again.

Thank God.

Dear Baby,

I miss you my little star, I was already dreaming of your name and writing it down, I love you, find your sister and give her a hug.
love always, your Mama.

This is the End of my blogging, I don't know where to go from here, where should I go?


  1. I'm so sorry, too. This is awful. xx

  2. I'm so sorry, kb. I wish I had more to say. thinking of you.. x


  3. Oh no. Oh no. I am so terribly, terribly sorry. xo

  4. My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry. It is all so unfair and so heartbreaking. Life will never be the same for any of us. We see it all so differently now- and we are so scared and changed.
    I am thinking of you.....

  5. I just stumbled across your blog and went back and read from the beginning..I am so sorry for your losses. I too have had both miscarriage and stillbirths, and my heart hurts for you.

    There are soo many of your posts that I have read (Impermanence) that have made me say to myself " That could have been written by me!" because I have felt the same in so many ways.