Lately, I have been remembering dreams again. I remember them so vividly these days. They are all about parenting, mothering an infant. Most of the time, I am nursing and holding a wee babe. The babe is nestled in the crook of my arm, and we are staring at each other, the baby is nursing and laughing and smiling. The baby always has dark, curly, brown hair, and a gorgeous smile.
I wonder if this is Jolene coming to me?
Is this a different child who is waiting to be born from me?
I don't know which, all I know is a I have an overwhelming urge to parent and love and mother an infant. Maybe it's my hormones?
My postpartum hormones telling me you should have a baby right now, you should be nursing, so here you go, a child who is in your dreams... I don't know...?
9 months ago